Monday, April 9, 2012

I Am Not In Control. I Am Not In Control.

So often I need to remind myself of that...I am not in control.  I also need to remind myself that my worrying does not control a situation.  I worry...a lot.  I know that ultimately God is in control, I know that God hears and answers my prayers.  I know that if God does allow something to happen, it is part of His perfect will for my life.  He ALWAYS has my best in mind.  But still.  I worry.  This photo is of my three younger brothers (Jeff, Josh, and Jason).  Oh, how they make this big sister worry!  Being on the other side of the world does not make this any easier! 

Last night one of my brothers (Josh, the one in the middle) was in a serious car accident last night.  He rolled his car, I'm not sure if he fell asleep or passed out at the wheel.  But thank God, he is only banged up and bruised and is alive and was able to walk away.  I so want to be there, to give him a hug and to help him (and a give him a swift kick in the pants, but that is beside the point).  Being the older sister and not having a mom who is involved in our lives, I feel that being a mother hen is my job.  I feel that I need to be the protector.  But I can't.  Even if I was back in the states, I'm not all-powerful and all-knowing.  BUT I know Someone Who is!  My Heavenly Father.  He loves my brothers more than I do, and has His perfect will in mind.  I need to remind myself that I am not in Control, He is.

I'd appreciate your prayers for my brother.  I'm sure he has a rough couple of days ahead of him.  Possibly even months. 

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord."
For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways,
and my thought than your thoughts."
Isaiah 55:8-9



PS.  This is the brother that was in the contest I was asking people to vote for.  He lost by 9.  :(





2 comments:

Jolene said...

Oh, Jen! I know it is hard not being there, but am so grateful to hear that it was not worse. Praying for comfort for you!

Chris, Carole, and Clan said...

I'm so glad he's okay! I know what it's like to "worry" about younger siblings... and parents who are growing older. Praying for you, and him!